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11th June.

Assalamualaikum & Greetings. hey. it's that date of the year again. you might not remember me anymore, but i would always remember this date eventho i don't want to. you'll always appear in my mind allover on this day and i'll have a hard time again. such influence. i know, i'm supposed to move on. i'm 21 and still holding onto something that's never going to happen, but this year it'll be different. but let me tell you a story; i was just enjoying my time with my family at One Utama and my mom asked us to pose with something on the wall. the wall have this hand painting and there's a small cafe infront of it. i was posing cheekily and suddenly my eyes caught with  the staff from the cafe. and guess what. i thought it was you. my heart dropped. i almost lost my balance there. my whole body turns cold. i tried to calm myself saying it's not you but also hoping that if it's you, you would appear again. it's been years. i know. yo...

[rant] these memories are killing me

Assalamualaikum & Greetings. i just hoping this rant gonna kick myself up to reality cos i'm too emo to even think right now (please excuse the random rant moments~) so i listen to some of the song that used to be my jams in my childhood and it brings me back to each moments i once had when i am actually less awkward and actually friendly with everyone. (i'm really different now) there's this one particular memory that makes me tear up just now and i can't believe i just did. it was the moment i read all my past facebook status (i'm one savage and lame kid i want to bury my past gosh) i missed one of my friend. we've been friend for quite some time, until i decided to ended it emotionlessly. he's a very caring and lovely person and i can't believe i utter those words to him. but i have to clarify something on that text. i told him i can't continue a forced friendship because that's how it have been this past years. not the middle school...